[	mood	|	mellow	]
[	music	|	DC talk	]

So, I'm been looking for a second job for the summer but haven't found anything.  Everywhere I've gone you have to be 18, and I'm like hello I'm be 18 in 2 months cut me a break will ya!?  It sucks...  BUT!!!!!   My boss was out of town Tuesday and Wednesday so I had to run our office and one of the lawyers came in to look at something and asked me if I was working 40 hours for Judi (my boss) and I said that I wished but we just don't have enough work for me to.... so...  he was like well you can come work for me.  I was like.. doing what?  He explained some things I'd be doing and I told him I'd get back to him.  So, I can keep looking for a job at the mall or food places and make min. wage or work for Glenn in my office that I'm alfready in and make 10(or more) and hour like I am already making.  What do you think?   Yeah, exactly - just what I thought.  So, I have to talk to him and make sure it will all work out but I'll be doing demand letters and getting his files ready for court because he is a personal injury attorney.  So... we'll see!  but I'm excited.  EXCEPT Judi was all like oh well I'll just have to take days off when I can and I'm like umm when I'm here working for you it's for you only and when i'm here for Glenn it will be for him only.. and she was like well.. we'll have to ask him that if i need you you will work for me that day...  like omg.  go away.  you said you didn't have enough work.  so.. i hope that isn't a problem....

so phil and i are just friends.  some pretty crappy things went down on sunday and needless to say i was very very VERY hurt.  i've been trying to forgive him and believe he is having a different heart, but only time will tell.  i love him, but i can't be with him right now.  maybe someday.   but..  i'm happy we're still friends because i can't really pictures my life without him in it in some way or another.  we'll see...  :O/    

i'm like counting down the days to go to Ohio.  i'm so excited to see the sister and brian.  AND i'm really happy because my friend jay who lives in mich. is gunna come down and see me!!!  i haven't seen him in yearrrrsss.  the funny thing is we met on a cruise but still talk and it was like over 5 years ago.  dang, i can't believe it.   i can't wait to be 18.  i just want to be able to go out if i want to and not have to worry about "well, am i going to be able to get in?"   i hate that.  so the sister and brian know a whollle bunch of people now so they're all gunna come over and party with us for my birthday and go out with us and such.  i hope it's fun.  well.. i'm bored.. so i'm just talking about nothing.. so..  i guess i'll go.  

i want to do something tonight. 

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mood

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exhausted

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Well, this semester is over!  I actually didn't do too bad.  It was a lot of work, but I managed to pull through!  

Anatomy II Lecture: A

Anatomy II Lab:  A

Spanish:  A

Chemistry:  B

Algebra:  B - This should have been an A, but I didn't study for the final at all and I didn't do that great on it... :O(    

I only have two more classes to take before I can apply for the nursing program!  SO EXCITED!!  I'm thinking I'm going to get a second job for the summer so I can make lots of moneeeyyyy!  We'll see if I actually get motivation to do that...  hmmm.  I didn't get much sleep... no I didn't get any sleep last night so I'm beyond tired but no matter how hard I try- I can't fall asleep!!!  I was worried about him.. and a little jealous...  and I still don't know what happened... so I'm a little... eh right now.  But whatever..... 

I'm off... to doing nothing!  I love not having to do anything or worry about studying... :O)

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mood

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annoyed

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Scotty doesn't know that Fiona and me
Do it in my van every Sunday.
She tells him she's in church but she doesn't go
Still she's on her knees and Scotty doesn't know!

Oh Scotty doesn't know!
So Don't Tell Scotty!
Scotty doesn't know!
Scotty doesn't know!
So Don't Tell Scotty!

Fiona says she's out shopping,
But she's under me and I'm not stopping...

Because Scotty doesn't know!
Scotty doesn't know! (X3)
So don't tell Scotty!
Scotty doesn't know!

Don't tell Scotty!

I can't believe he's so trusting,
While I'm right behind you thrusting.
Fiona's got him on the phone,
And she's trying not to moan.
It's a three-way call and he knows nothing!

Scotty doesn't know!(X3)
So don't tell Scotty!
Scotty doesn't know!(X3)

We'll put on a show!
Everyone will go!
Scotty doesn't know!(x3)

The parkin lot
Why not? It's so cool when you're on top!
His front lawn in the snow
Life is so hard because Scotty doesn't know!

We did it on his birthday...

Scotty doesn't know!(X4)

Scotty doesn't know!
Scotty won't know!
Scotty doesn't know!
Scotty's gotta know!
Gotta tell Scotty!
Gotta tell him myself!
Scotty doesn't know! (X10)


[Chant] Scotty doesn't know! (x7)
[Chant] Scotty's gotta go!

[	mood	|	horny	]
[	music	|	reality check	]

Too much going on.  Had an interesting weekend...  now I'm stuck studying for the rest of my finals. 

I know what I want, I just dont' know what He wants. 

[	mood	|	tired	]
[	music	|	linkin park	]

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control i fear is never ending
controlling/i can't seem

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence)
(i'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
i've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real

discomfort,endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting/reacting
against my will i stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting how i can't seem...

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence)
(i'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
i've felt this way before
so insecure

[	mood	|	numb	]
[	music	|	Somebody told me that you had a boyfriend...	]

So, I had about the worst weekend possible.  We'll see where things go from here...  I don't know.

Finals, Finals, Finals!!!   I'm so not excited about taking them, but i AM so excited that this semester is almost over!!!  WHOOOOOOO

I can't wait to go to Ohio, and party it up for my 18th! 

Anyways, it's shower time.